"sometimes i feel aimless..
at other times, i feel my life is meaningless.
once in a while, i feel useless..
every now and then, i feel breathless, tired and exhausted..
occasionally, i feel emo..
i am optimistic. =)"
familiar? haha.. i "stole" it from sabby's blog.
i totally agree to the content.
just that for my case, i dun feel breathless.
i feel helpless.
at certain point of life, things just dun go my way and i'm totally lost.
at this point of time, i'm having great difficulties coping with my studies.
as much as i want it to be smooth sailing, it just go otherwise.
i'm not someone who can spend hours after hours facing notes or books.
i do enjoying studying, BUT, not to that extent.
and oh great, jc life is all about that.
i need to de-stress.
time is never on my side.
i really really got lotsa things to do.
and im not given enough time.
i know its my part for poor time management.
but, theres hardly much i can to.
things that i must do, i cant push.
things that are not impt, i'm not caring already.
then, why is it that time is still running out?
and my limbs.
they're giving me lotsa problems.
calcium tablets to heal my joints.
and what comes next..?
i wonder.
months back, i had this ear problem.
yupps. the problem persists till today.
i can't do anything about it.
i mean i tried but all din work.
i went for MRI which cost $950!
and the doc told me that my cells are too active and my ear is perfectly fine.
prescribed tablets for me. twice a day.
i hate medicine.
they make me feel weak.
and i dont like it.
seriously.
but, why has it got to be my ear cells?
cant it be my brain cells?
so that they will make me smarter or what...
my health is deteriorating.
i want so badly for my car license.
BUT, i cant have it until after my As.
which is... NOV!
oh great.
im turning 18 in august la.
see how fustrated things can be.
they just turn their faces against you.
alright, i'm feeling tired.
my brain needs to rest.
good nites!