It's really been awhile.

It feels weird to be blogging here at this moment after I "abandoned" it 2 months ago.

This blog of mine has seen me through all major exams and I thought I should return to it during this mugging season.

As much as I've found new space to settle in, this blog is probably the one everyone (regular readers) is familiar with.

Having a post like this suggests no intention of returning but to reminisce and see how much (little) I've grown from the past.

It's like how we go back to our ex-schools after graduation and feel good about it. The place that once played a part in your life.

:D

And with that,

HAVE FUN WITH MUGGING FELLOW NUSers.

See light when May comes!

:)))

Decisions.

Hmmm..

This is the turning point of my life.

There're many (good) decisions to be made.

I've reached a stage to think seriously and clearly to what I want in life - in every aspects.

I made a decision.

I'm gonna leave this space.

This blog has seen me through ups and downs. Mostly ups.

I'm going through a series of downs right now, so, it gonna take some time for me to overcome each problem slowly.

If time is of the essence, I've already lost.

So, good bye readers.

Till I find a better place to settle my feelings and thoughts in; Wordpress and Livejournal shall be it.

=)

Econometrics.

Godddddd..

Anyone who's intending to major in Econs, think twice.

Half the time, you'll have problems with assignments!

=||||

I can't freaking do my assignment and textbook/notes don't seem to help at all.

Screw it.

Just screw it.

Sleep, the lack of it.

Hahahahahaahahahahaha..

I've attended the most entertaining b'day party.

Everyone (except the clown and other victim) was laughing so hard that, we seriously don't need alcohol to get us high.

The "drama" was so unforgettable, it's been entrenched in ALL of us FOREVER.

Hahahahaahahaha..

Ivy was out of control.

During the party, she was... 

leopard crawling to everywhere (I don't rmb seeing her walk at all! HAHA).

dancing (making her way up hg! HAHAHAHA).

bullshitting (the bullshits are the funniest though).

confessing her inner thoughts(and yes la, she's damn scared of me).

entertaining (like how she wanna LAUNCH a police report! LOL!! That was good I tell you)

Right now...

She wished last night didnt exist and ytd was all a fake (hahaha, ivy too bad, we'd all the evidences already. LOL)

She's saying fuck every 5 secs and looking for a hole to hide her face that has been mopped around.

She's not seeing all of us for the next 3 mths. 

She's still in partial high.

She's the joke of her party!

HAHAHAHA.

Ivy, my friend, I salute you!!

:):):)

As the date suggests..

Happy Valentine's (FRIENDSHIP) Day!!

=))

With each week, time is always flying faster.

And so, it's friday again.

This week has been the most tedious week my entire life (so far). I definitely won't want to experience what I've gone through this week.

Overnight, my world crumbled into pieces and I broke down in front of my bestfriends.

There was sadness and only sadness. For that moment, I though I was gone.

Fortunately, I made a comeback with their support.

It's only now I thoroughly understand being honest and true to your bestfriends can really take friendships to higher level.

So blooooody damn glad that this monsterous week is over.

I'm feeling a lot better and things will only get better. This I can promise y'all.

=))

I'm not here to make a public announcement regarding the matter. I want the issue to be kept as close to my heart with those involved. I don't think anyone should be informed or told what has happened. It's just too personal. 

However, here's a short sharing with everyone..

Always respect your friends and listen to what they've got to say.

Sometimes, it's not only about yourself. I was selfish once, I won't be selfish twice.

Long friendship is hard to build and efforts are like fertilisers to make it grow stronger. 

Remember, never give up on any friendship unless you're hurt so badly, you feel better off without it. Otherwise, think twice before you do anything irrationale to ruin friendships that meant the most to you. 

I've probably been through what you've not and yes, listen to me. 

hahahahaha..

PARTY TIME!

=DDDD

Sleep (or the lack of it)

Through the course of this week, I've been sleeping for at most 5 hrs a day.

And I forsee weekends to be worse cos I've IVY'S 21st!

There's no way I'm gotta missed/skipped/don't attend the party just becos I'm dead tired.

And.

Next week has lots of deadlines.

If I don't get them done by today or tmr, I'm as good as dead.

Sometimes, I wonder if quitting sch helps.

Oops.

hahahaha.

Oh.

Sab and I had a good long talk last night. 

We started on msn at 9pm and ended at 5.30am.

I guess the talk has brought us to know each other better (or so i wish).

I've managed to reveal tons of things inside me all along to her. And we pretty much see things in very different light. Almost an exact opposite of each other.

And, I'm glad she has come to know how I'm feeling with the things going on in my mind now.

Some issues just kept us bothered, but, it's a matter of time we'll work things out.

hahaha..

=))

Crap. This post is soooooo random.

I need to go bathe and drive down to schhhh for 2 hrs of lect.

=|

Breathe

I finally can breathe!

I've completed my essay after many days of writing it.

I read through it, I don't think it's good at all.

But just think that way, I'VE DONE IT.

deadline is tmr.

presentation due next week.

many many assignments and midterms coming up. (i've lost the dates!)

I'm so tired...

I don't have enough sleep from last night.

And. to wake up at 7am tmr is crazy.

I'll be dead by end of this week.

I've so much to catch up on tutorials!

It's frightening to know that there's a mountain of stuffs I don't understand despite attending all lectures.

AHHH.

This sem is shitty and I knew it before it started. I'm just digging my own grave by taking 5 econs modules. 

sheesh.

I also know whining doesn't help.

I'm gonna do my referencing and SLEEP.

4.20am

ahhh. i'm only half way through my essay.

dead dead dead.

--edited--

i'm 3/4 thru my essay.

die die die.

Spot the Difference

HAHAHA.

I'm bored doing assignments.

I decided to amuse myself and you with this.

Did you see what I see?

hahahahaha...

....

I'm feeling a way that I've never felt before and it sucks.

Trust me, I'm so tired that I can almost sleep standing. 

But now (12am), my mind just cannot shut which makes me extremely awake at my most tired moments.

I'm overloading myself with unnecessary emotions.

Screw this. I'm unhappy

just fuck off, thoughts.

Big Smile. Wide Grin. =) =D

When was the last time you took a neoprint? hahaha

After spendings 3 days together consecutively, our friendship propelled to another level.

=))

I'm so glad they have been there all this while. 

They've brought lotsa laughters to my life. We laugh at every jokes we make even if they're mindless. It's the fun we had when we burst out laughing together at each other. 

I really enjoy that. Life is not all about seriousness. We should take time to laugh and have fun whenever we can.

And now, peipei is snatching sab with me.

WTH LA.

I sure win anyway!

hahahahahaha...

BENJAMIN BUTTONS later on.

It's gonna be a mass gathering.

The clique of 4 has expanded to 8.

WOW. 

HAHAHA.

Mind you, I'm a S'porean.

I was doing my readings and research for my assignment and came across this article which I felt it was ridiculously written just becos he has issues with our government. (esp, the MM)

Anyway, fyi if you'd not know, Singapore has achieved the "First World" status. We're at the lower end of the list though. Nevertheless, still considered as First world nation due to our economic achievements over the years. 

So.. that stupid loser that blogged about the issue saying that he doesn't see any first world in S'pore relates suicide rates to our status. WHAT IN THE WORLD. Has he not heard of Japan or what? I think he's just against S'pore in particular and people like him doesnt deserve to be a citizen. In his blog, he stated he has become a US citizen. He gave up his citizenship here only becos he hates the way the government controls our CPF schemes. 

Without our government, we wouldn't be here today. Wake up your ideas please. I don't know why I'm reacting this manner over an incredulous post. I just gotta say something.

Don't like the big T.

8 days has this joke on a man who totally can't handle technology. I laughed. At the same time, I see myself in the same situation. Only that, I can handle technology moderately. Not as handicapped as the man in the joke. I'm not sure if I can share the joke here becos it's copyrighted. Just flip through 8 days, it's at the second last page I think.

Anyhow, as I was saying, I do handle technology moderately. No association with the term 'IT savvy'. A laptop to me simply serves as a work desk that does normal emailing, facebooking, blogging, etc. Simply put, laptop is all about internet to me. It doesn't have much functions given my brief understandings of how those programmes like Photoshop, Flash, etc work. I'm comfortable with my limited knowledge becos I believe there're people who're more noob than I am. hee. I'm not interviewing for a position as chief IT officer. 

Exploring new technology has never been my perimeter of interests. Whenever I buy a new handphone, I'll just make sure all my contacts are there, ringtone is not the default 'ring-ring-ring' and I can comfortably and efficiently send messages; I've pretty much "played" with my new toy. 

Thinking of gadgets that I own (not many to begin with). My proudest buy would be the iPod Touch last Sept. I took some time considering if I should need it. Honestly, I don't need it. But, it's one of the few rare occasions that I actually am interested in a particular gadget. At first, I thought it was the coolest gadget Apple has came up with and I wanna own one badly. For its extra functions - websurfing, IMs, games, applications, photo albums, organiser, what else? Months after I bought it, the iPod Touch is merely an iPod to me. Fundamentally, it plays music. During boring train rides, I'll keep myself occupied with Bejeweled. Nothing more. Sometimes, I find it such a hassle to use unlike my iPod shuffle that only has one function. Oh well, it's hard to balance advancements and convenience. 

I feel we should not be boiled down by the complexity of technology with ten thousands and one functions in one tiny mini gadget. Why should we allow technology to make our life hard when it's already tough! I'm truly amazed by anyone who can handle Photoshop like how I win a mahjong game effortlessly. My knowledge in Photoshop will always be at adjusting image size, contrasting, and add in those effects that are preset in the program. Photoshoppers, I salute you. I shall not go on to talk about Excel and now, even Powerpoint has become tougher to use than before. Frontpage, Publisher, what's that? Noooo..

Believe it or not, laptop and its programmes are not the only issues I have. I've difficulties with those gaming gadgets too. PSP, Wii, PS3, Xbox, DS lite bla bla bla. There was once, I tried to play with my cousin's PSP and I don't know how to on it! After my cousin on it for me, I tried to familarise myself with the simplest game and I just couldn't do it. Yes, I suck that badly. Somehow, my nerves/brain cells responsible for gaming and IT related stuffs are under-developed. If I even have them at all.

In essence, I'm just not good with anything too technological. Even a simple camera can cause me to lose my patience, you don't want know more. But, technology has become an intergral part of our lives. We depend on them daily. Despite being digitally-impaired, I very much need my laptop, handphone and iPod. It will kill me to pass a day without them. We're all parasites of technology afterall.

 

Why are we still not together?

Everyone's looking for the answer! HAHA.

I came online this morning, logged onto facebook.

Saw a msg from Sab.

Saying, there're 2 photos that I uploaded showing her bra and requested them to be removed.

So.

I went through all 50 photos checking out her breasts, as well as, all the girls' breasts making sure everyone's "safe".

In the end, I'd to remove 3 photos from the 50.

My perfect Monday morning!

Checking out many pairs of breasts. Sick! hahaha.

=)

The irony is..

Sab was the one who taught me that zao geng is perfectly alright since we've nothing to lose at the end of the day.

She's also the one who wanted those photos to be removed from facebook.

You guys saw the relation?

hahahahahaha..

Ughs.

off to sch again.

Have been driving very frequently to sch. Which makes me hate the road on weekdays.

Damn.

My friend's skipping lecture today.

Should I too?

Hmmm...hmmm.....

I'm skipping it as well. (There's webcast to fall back on.)

=D

Photos are on FB!

Hmm..

It's the 4th week of school.

And Feb has set in.

CNY will be officially over next Monday.

1) I just found out I've an essay due next Wednesday.

2) I've gotta watch Bride Wars.

3) Continuous 21st b'day parties to attend.

4) Seriously commit 75% of myself to sch work.

5) Save lotsa money becos I wanna prove to me that I don't take money for granted. 

6) Thinking of ways to make 5 come true.

I've the 2 funniest friends. 

Sab and Peipei.

They never fail to make me the subject of their jokes.

But, I'm absolutely comfortable with that! Secretly enjoying it in fact.

I laughed so hard while chatting with them, my jaw almost jammed.

Hahaha!

2nd Feb.

It's a nice date for something good to happen.

I'm waiting....

for my brains to "activate".

=)

Chu 5.

CNY has been keeping me really busy.

I feel the CNY tradition of cosy affair has become a gambling event for everyone.

Hahaha.

I've been playing mahjong everyday starting from the eve.

Today is the only day I probably won't touch any tiles.

Family visitings are almost done.

Friends' visitings will be on tmr.

Then, CNY will be over.

School work is piling up.

I attended all lectures, but, I don't understand anything.

Econs has become so mathematical.

So.

I'm really struggling to get pass this sem asap.

Hai.

Internships are on the way, I hope.

Right now, I'm leaving for sch!

Bye.

The prelude of CNY.

After much anticipation, it's the eve of CNY today!

This eve has been my most busy by far.

Being a young, yet skillful (haha) driver in the family of both sides (paternal & maternal); I'd help run errands whole day long.

My day started at 8am and I only have time to rest now (3pm). An hour nap in between just now.

This is really tiring, but, with the least complaints.

Although, MY BROTHER HAS THE LICENSE TOO, how come am I the only one driving in and out of my carpark to send food, bring food, buy food, etc from my relatives?!

Hahahaha. My only complaint ok. not a lot right. :)

And, it's also the only occasion I see my dad helping with household chores. Hahaha.

When I was younger, CNY was much looked forward to becos it's the only time children get too gamble too. 

But, as I grow older, gambling has become as so convenient that I don't see anything special anymore. 

But but, CNY has a newer meaning now. This year especially, I looked forward to CNY just like younger days.

It's the best time for family bonding with ALL the relatives. Those that you probably see only once to twice a year. 

When I was a kid, I see my maternal-side's relatives every single day becos we will all have dinner at my grandma's place. 

Now, I join them for dinner probably thrice a week? The sad part of life when busy schedule is always in the way.

So at least, every CNY, I would spend a full 3 days with them. Reunion, Chu yi, Chu er. =)

The imperfection of this CNY is that, we'll all have to start sch on chu san. 

Unlike previous years, I'd go visitings with my friends on chu san. This year, we gonna have it on chu 6.

Going on visitings with friends is like the most major event that most of us actually took the effort to make it and with most of us getting our licenses, we abandon public and take the cars!

I hope our "tradition" to do visitings will go on for years, becos it's really saddening to see fewer people can make it.

Oh, not forgetting the our yearly movie date on chu yi's evening.

Friends wrote new meaning to CNY. 

Younger children do not go out with friends during CNY, but, young adults do!

Dear friends, it's time for the annual gathering again!

=D

Oh ya, Jack neo's movie was horrible. Please don't watch it. WARNED!

It was so bad, don't watch it even if it's free. 

Just DON'T!

Pei, ivy, jaryl and I watched it ytd, we almost killed ourselves the director.

Then, it was World Tour at Jaryl's place. 

I don't suck that badly at games actually. Still got hope one.

hahaha.

It's the Ox year. 

Regardless how crappy our economy will be, embrace ourselves.

Government say we'll sail through it; we will.

Although it's the worst recession since independence, we've all it takes to survive this crisis.

Before we know it, we're gonna be stepping into 2010 happily.

My blog and I sincerely wish everyone,

恭喜发财， 万事如意！

=DD

ps: I wish the chinese tradition will last for centuries becos I want my children in future to enjoy CNY as much as I do.

Have you thought about it?

On the train back just now, a man was flipping the recruitment section of straits times. The middle-aged man had his handphone on his hand, while looking, he tried calling those agencies for a job interview. From what I heard, he's into artiste management, has only 'O' level qualification - with experience though, asking for at least $4k monthly. I couldn't help to continue listening to his conversation with whoever he was speaking to. (Oh, I'd my earphones on. So, it wasn't obvious that I was eavesdropping.) As he spoke, he tried to explain how he deserves a 4k salary with an 'O' level qualification. He said, 4k is rather fair. Really? 

This time, I really feel recession has hit us - young adults. Although news have been annoucing about technical recession and negative growth in 2009, I didn't feel the impact personally until what I saw on the train. Middle-aged man looking for a job - I could sense the urgency from his voice and how quick he was to call up every employer on the MRT. This is serious business. People everywhere are getting retrenched. Newly graduates can't even secure a permenant job in the finance sector. I was talking to a friend who has just graduated from NUS Business School, majoring in finance. She has only able to secure a temporary job at Citibank which has every tight headcounts currently. No one probably expected a graduate with a business degree to end up as a temp staff only. This is how bad the job market is. And because I'm living off my parents, I thought nothing of this recession. 

But now, I start to worry. When it's my turn to secure a decent paid job, where do I stand? Even a finance graduate finds it hard to get a job, what should an economics graduate be expecting? My plan to pursue CFA upon graduation doesn't seem logical now. CFA is only useful if I'm doing compliance or investment banking. But as you know, investment banking is the dying sector right now. Almost no one is employing in that sector. So, I'm gonna shelf my plan on CFA. In other words, I need to start looking for a job next year!! Trust me, by next year, the economy barely recovers. And the amount of people out there looking for a job, especially those with better grades, gets the meat first. This is my concern. After so many years of education, in NUS particularly, I can't get a job of my choice. Am I ready to face the major setback and rejection in life for the first time? Immediately after I graduate, how great.

Hai.

Woah, this is a heavy post on a Thursday night. I wanted to write more, but, I'm getting depressed as I write. It's really easy to turn an optimist pessimistic, the other way round is gonna be a lot harder.