end of 2005.

2005 is coming to an end.
let me do some thoughts and reflections.

well.. this yr hasnt been tat wonderful for me..
i only managed to scrape thru tis yr..
althou i had a good start at tpjc.. followed by my 'o' levels results.. then go on to mjc..
i tot everything cld be jus smooth for me..like how it started..
until...the mid-yr exams daunted me.
it really caught me off-guard.
i din expect myself to do as bad.
anyway, the promos got me back..
shld i say i earned it back myself..
wateva it is, the history aint gonna repeat itself.
i'll make sure next year runs smoothly for me.

this year is kinda different from previous years..
mainly due to the different environments i went to.
leaving evss.. leaving all my friends..
i gotta adapt myself in a new environment, tpjc.
tpjc definately gave me wonderful memories.
especially the orientation thou i din really open up to others.
still.. i din regret my decision there.
stayed in tpjc for a mth.. decided to pursue a poly life..
but somehow, somthing went wrong n hay-wired..
i ended up in my current sch, mjc.
my goodnesss.
mjc is such wonderful place to be in.
its not as bad as how the public perceived.
in fact, its full of life!
theres a time to study, theres a time to play.
unlike tpjc, theres always time to play n hardly enuf for studies.
i'm not trying to fend mjc.
i'm jus trying to make ppl realise tat its not as no life as it seems to be.
u create ur life there.
apart from the canteen food. everything else was great.
it may not apply to everyone, but at least to me, it was great spending my first yr there.
i dun deny that the environment is competitve, but it also pushes me to work hard.
overall, its a nice sch to be in.

its also this yr tat i learned alot n changed abit..
i found out that i actualli behave according to my moods.
i know many do tat too, but it applies particularly for me.
when i'm in da right mood, even the saddest matter can be a joke to me.
but when i'm off mood, not even god can make me smile.
its all within myself.
i've always been hot-tempered n lack of patience.
often do things on an impulse n cause myself to regret after tat.
not fully regret actualli, but i cld have at least stop certain things from happening n create a hoo-haa.
however, i do learn from each event n am glad i dun make the same mistake again.
now, i'm able to react rationally.

in the past, i used to be very very very direct.
till the ultimate extent tat even a single word can break one's heart.
today, i'm more conscious of the words i use, the way i present it.
thou it cant be helped at times tat i still use those unkindly terms.
i'm already trying to curb n improve.
most of the times those words are jus empty craps.
they shoot off my mouth unknowingly and i dun mean to hurt.

i'm a double-D.
Direct n Decisive.
i always feel that being decisive is a plus point.
n i'm kinda proud of my decisiveness.
however, i dun seem to be it anymore.
often unable to make decisions and had to put tat matter on hold.
wats with me??
where's my decisiveness??

apart frm all these, theres one thing tat i cant tolerate.
tat is being....LATE!
i'm not saying tat i'm nv late.
but at least 80% of the time i'm punctual.
being late to me is an irresponsible act.
as humans, we shld observe punctuality.
its jus some basic courteousy.
honestly, i'm inheriting the late-habit frm my frens.
HAHA.
i need to kick this habit.
oh no.
i shld help my frens kick this habit.

one last thing tat i wanna say..
stereotyping is bad.
i dun deny tat i do stereotype.
especially when i first step foot into mjc.
the stereotyping trend there was incorrigible.
not so much towards the end of the yr..
but it was bad in the beginning of the yr when everyone dunno anyone.
all we cld do is stereotype.
and all these stereotypings often mislead ppl into believing something which is not true.
but made up by ppl tat sounded incedibly convincing.
slowly, as we socialise more, the truth speaks.
realising tat wat i've/we've been commenting were jus some fact-less tales.
the truth is the direct opposite of wat i've or we've stereotyped.
we ought to give ppl a chance to prove themselves and give us a chance to be ashamed of ourselves.
i've proven myself wrong in all the stereotypings and not gonna carry them with me to 2006.

lastly, i'm glad tat i've not lost any friends this year. upon tat, i made a couples of good frens and countless frens. also, 2005 is a fruitful yr for me. not so much of smooth sailing but definately great experiences to bringing me a step closer to the outside world.

-friends n experiences are my 2 greatest harvest of the year!

paint room.

holy holy.
i painted my room ytd.
erm.. not me alone of cos..
there are pei, sab, mh, zx, pris, hg n kw!!
all my lovely buddies!!
i tink we all almost die painting yeah..
so sickening..
the paint cldnt dry n the yellow cldnt cover my original blue despite tat i used a coat of white as base alr..
nevertheless..
the orange was so up to expectations.
LOL.
so i tot give it a day to dry..
hence, i slept in my bro's room ytd nite since he went to ton at his fren's place..

DEN DEN!!
kuku de!!
muz be the darn aircon!!
all the paint on the pipes dripped!!
and its now all over my floor..
fook it man!
gotta re-paint tmr..
my goodness.
why muz it dripped?!?!?!?
u know how long we took to paint not?!?!?!
so tiring alr still muz make me go thru once.
i tink my mum shld jus change the air-cons instead of me re-painting again.
it might drip again lah.
anyway, ya.. jus re-paint la.. i shldnt complain so much rite..
its my room afterall..

yup.. today went back to sch early in da morning 7am.
for first three mths orientation.
omg!!
there's no east viewians.
not even a single soul frm evss.
how sad n pathetic.
at least our batch got 4??
the 89' batch got none!!
HAHA.
alright... orientation sucks u see..
its jus talks talks talks n more talks.
when all these talks have nothing gotta do wit me..
wat a boring day!!
went home after the orientation n slept till now..
super duper tired after all the paintings n stuffs..

my dream...
is to get into SMU.
n do my double degree!!
accountancy n physchology!!
hoho.

Xmas '05

Merry X'mas!!

this year xmas's celebration wit s.o.x was rather unusual for me..

cos we slept in a tent!!

eh.. sleeping in the tent by the sea is so cooling lah..

yall shld go try..

but our next aim is to buy a 3-room tent next year..

can u believe it?!!?

we saw a grp of malays wit like 6 tents? n even brought tv set n radio wit them!!

is like their mini bunglow by the sea.

they sure know how to pamper themselves.

HAHA.

THE PARTY!!

everything was great apart frm the weather.

kuku weather, rained the whole afternoon.

thank god it stopped in the late noon.

otherwise the bbq wldnt have been a success(?).

at least we had fun..pitching the tent!!

i learnt how to pitch a tent at last.

ok, not me but we.

a grp of malays taught us how to.

we were like some noobs.

10 odd of us cant even handle a small tent n gotta have ppl teach us.

n within mins, the tent is up!!

wooohooo..major accomplishment!!

so, the bbq started at ard 6 once the wings, satays n otahs arrived.

sab n me provided curry n beehoon respectively.

the food we prepared is sufficiently enuf for all of us.

this time round, theres no wastage of food.

*thumbs up*

the night party on..

people starts to stroll in..

most of us there know most of us..

so theres lotsa craps, jokes n laughters!!

for me, theres one point of time when the climax sets in.

its when...my parents visited me.

and yes.. my darling was there too!!

a mini "meet-the-parents" session!!

HAHAHAHA.

u dunno how up tight i was lah..

but to my surprise, my parents were very ok wit him..

nono..not him onli..but very ok with us.

HEH!!

when the night is approaching 12am..

jason & rayna arrived..

so.. we had our gifts exchange..

hahaha.

i got rayna's gift.. last yr i got jason's gift.

so qiao rite..

den kent got sabby's shark!! muahahahas.

tat shark kept us entertained for quite awhile.

n jaryl shld shut-up.

LOL.

after gifts exchange, some of us sat down n crap.

some went to catch crabs.

some go pa-tor.

here n dere..

at the same time, waiting for "i-promise" to come..

i muz say, yx is full of shits!!

HAHA.

finally, i-promise arrived.

had our 2nd round of bbq-ing wit them..

they stayed for awhile n left.. cos they're too tired after work..

so, left sox ppl.. most ppl went home alr.. its abt 3am by den..

left wit me, sab, zx, mh, ben, kw, yx, my daddy.

my daddy is too obessed wit the crabs..

spent whole nite catching crabs. LOL.

den mh n ben pa-tor whole nite.

leaving me sab zx yx kw..

5 of us hide in the tent n TALK! ( hot topics!! )

after tat, cant take it anymore, slept at ard 6am..

HAHAH.

woke up at ard 8am.

here's another highlight of e day.

while packing up stuffs, we found 3 bottles of vodka!!!

jus nice for me sab kw!!

3 of us were like so high lah..

first time waking up in a tent on xmas eve.

den found vodkas. cold one summore.

wooohoooo..

while trying to open sab's vodka.

me n kw cut ourselves.

but tats not the point.

the point is tat, we found vodkas!!!!

afte tat, i decided to gulp down the bottle in one shot.

wanted to let my face be red den take fotos!

i finished my whole bottle, the face still pale pale.

while sab's face is alr like tomato when she onli had a few sips.

so i finished hers as well.

n bingo!! my face is still not as red. but my mind is alr dying.

HAHA.

my stomach is burning.

oh!! zx, my daddy n yx went home ard 8.

leaving me sab mh ben n kw.

went to sit on the mats..

den i started giving nonsense..

i mean.. nothing to do den entertain them lo..

so fun la!!

we ordered mac to the tent n we ate inside the tent!!

late morning, starts to rain..

all hide in the tent..

den the tent leak!!

holy shit.

so decided to leave the tent n start packing up.

sab's dad came n fetched us at abt 1pm..

well.. this is how we spent a day at pasir ris park..

now, let me do some ranking..

Crapshits King- Yexiang

Fire King- My daddy

Pator Queen- Meihuey

Brownie Queen- Pris

Out-of -the-box exchange gift Queen- Sabby

Least nonsense Queen- ME!!! wahahahahas

Lastly, thanks to all that came!!

You guys rock my socks!!

LOL.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

blogs??

hmmm..
today was rather interesting..
bought a bed n a cupboard for my room..
gonna redo my whole room..
and it'll be painted bright ORANGE n YELLOW.
kinda daring to use those colors heh.
but i've yet to figure the design..

anyway..
it was an impulsive act on my mum's part to buy cupboard.
and ended up re-doing the whole room..
actualli she wanted to buy a bed frame onli..
n i wanted nothing!! i dun wanna redo my room!!
but cos we alr bought the mattress..
she si si also wan to buy the bed frame..
so i complained that my room is too messy..
shldnt touch it at tis moment.
hmph.. my mum went a little outta mind..
decided to tear down my original cupboard n get me a new one.
by right, its my room, i shld choose my furnitures..
but shes making every decisions for me..
aiya..whatever makes her happi..
shes mummy afterall..
most importantly, shes paying.. duh~
HAHA.

went to get green tees from pmk wit my boy ytd..
got those shirts from PMK..
din really like pmk thou..
cos.. its kiddy.. i mean too cartoon alr la..
summore we bought the one wit the most cartoons..the most kiddish..
for the sake of buying..
well.. its for my xmas party.. so.. its alrite..
LOL.

the coolest part of the day..
my mum told me tat she will bringing my couz to tat xmas party to "visit?" me..
i mean.. of cos i allow her to come...
but wat if she sees me wit him?!!?!
holy shit.
theres alot other guys ard as well.. but those wun be wearing the same shirt as me..
i know i'll face this ordeal sooner of later..
but not at the party right...?
or perhaps things will figure out smoothly..
let all wait n see good show on the nite..
heehee.
actualli, i'm kinda eager too!!
muahahahahas.

damn shitty..
tmr's squash training gonna be on time..
cos for every min late 2 push-ups n 1 round ard track..
all these are the addition on our 5 rounds ard track warm up.
man..squash is getting mad.
but i like it. wooohooo.
oh ya.. needa submit logisitics for orientation as well..
love being an ogl until all these logistics thingy comes in..
wat a hassle.
muz bring a pail to sch la.
den wat am i suppose to use at home?!!
my home will be pail-less!!
n wat if my washing machine breaks down..
dun need to wash clothes ar.. kuku..
ok, i've more den enuf pails at home.
*trying to find excuses*
but still, i cant bring myself to lug a pail to sch in a sunny bright morning!!
i'll be looking damn turtle lah!!
wa lau.. imagine a squash-er lugging a red pail?!?!?!
so not matching n out of place can...
shit it shit it.

its so late alr n i'm not a lil sleepy at all.
darn.
shall go count sheeps n sleep.
good night folks.

holidays

this hols is almost coming to an end.
so...wat have i been doing??
slacking..? not really.
ogl, squash, organising xmas keep me busy for tis hols.
as for sch work..
shit.
i've not been doing.
started thou.. but slow moving.
seriously, i'm not in da mood to do la..

this hols also makes me realised many things..
life aint as comfy as it seemed to be
theres problems everywhere.
and everyone faces different problems.
i feel lost when i cant help.

this hols is my worst hols eva.
holy shit.

video.

omg.

nv will i wan to act again!!

holy shit.

woke up 6.20am on a sunday morning, jus to help jaryl with his project.

where to find such gd frens rite..

me n pei were 2 stupid fools.

how can we possibly agreed to help him man..

acting aint an easy task..

as much as we need the morning sun n prayed hard that the rain wld stop..

it din ans our call.

well.. we waited...

frm 7 to 8 plus..

the rain was little by then.

so we tot the real act can begin..

things din really run well...

cos.. non of us were once actors..

not me, not pei, not jaryl's basketball frens.

nevertheless, we took effort to "act".

even a simple evil smile can take so hard to present.

it was tiring.

all we wanted is to end tis thing quickly..

we needed sleep badly.

the whole thing ended at abt 1.30pm??

jus a 4 mins video alr took us the whole morning..

imagine those long drama series, how long will they be taking..

actors n actresses deserve certain degree of respect nonetheless.

thats wat i've been doing for today..

a "wonderful" acting experience.

LOL.

oh. ytd.. went to watched rp vs tp netball match.

hmmm...

dun really know wat to comment..

jus feel tat their standard is really atrocious.

i bet evss's netball team is better den rp's.

or perhaps shld put it this way, rp is as lousy as evss.

hohoho.

rp faces the same fate as wat evss used to face.

how saddening.

and i've a sudden urge of joining netball again.

Netball, i'm coming back for u!!

bringing time back to friday,
when i played mahjong wit my bitches.
as usual at jaryl's place.
i was simply too lucky or wateva..
i won 16 bucks...
yay!!
long time since i've been winning so much..
the feeling is too satisfying.
LOL.
mahjong queen is back.

bbq.

guys guys..
finalised.
the bbq is on the 23rd of Dec.
the pit is near fisherman village.
pit No.16..
the exact location: facing the sea, the right side of the fisherman's village.
turn up at ard 5.30pm...
do turn up with a GREEN tee also..

please kindly make ur payments to mh by this week.
i seek ur cooperation..

oh.. if wanna request for any food.. do inform me or sab..
we will meet ur request if the financial allows.

this will be for now..
any other updates shall be informed.
have fun..

s.o.x

finally.. managed to settle the money, date n venue for tis yr xmas.
it was a tedious process.
cos everyone jus cldnt compromise on everything.
i hate tis kinda business..
its killing me..
thank goodness..
everything is on track now..

thinking back last yr..
when we made our shirt..
everyone was happy abt it..
no one complained, grumbled or even object.

however, tis yr is very different.
most of the peeps din approve to the shirt.
i see no reason why so.
but since most of us gave an attitude tat wld eventually leads to unhappy ending..
i feel we might as well discard the idea of having the sox's shirt.
and we seriously did.

most of us tis yr din feel the bond we share like we used to.
we drifted apart.. tis is inevitable i know..
as all of us are separated to diff schs..
we cant possibly stay as united as we used to huh..
tis is saddening..
tats why i hope tat this xmas party will find us back..
or at least bridge the gap..
despite tat.. not all are willing to turn up.
i'm darn sad or call it disappointed over this..
i dunno why..
its jus once a year..
why not we jus put everything on the hold for tat party..?
is it tat difficult..?
i mean.. if we con't to drift apart..
dun find it surprising when we dun even recognise each other on the streets.
i dun wanna see it coming.
so.. no matter wat, i'll make sure the party goes on.

to compromise to everybody's needs..
i'm not making the shirt..
since some say no money..
some say design not nice..
some say dun see the pt of having..
wateva shitty reasons..
i'm fine wit it..
no shirt k..

n for the budget for party..
supposedly $15 each for sox members n FOC for invited guests..
but..there's still ppl who find it ex..
okok.. i made changes..
now, all sox members is paying $10 each.
all invited guests $5.

i've made all necessary changes..
please please please..
show me tat lil sincerity for all ur frens by showing up.
cant believe i'm going to tis extend for a gathering.

wat can i say...
i'm disappointed.
i'm tired of all this shits.
gathering ppl..collecting money..bookings n plannings..
my job wld be much smoother if everyone jus cooperate..
IRRESPONSIBLE.
i'm so sure tat..
one more nonsense regarding tis bbq..
I'LL CANCEL IT!!
i mean wat i say.

puma.

first of all...
i won my friendly matches against srjc n nyjc.
pro eh..?
LOL.

tired.
of slacking ard in town.
so boring.
saw sly..n few old frens..small world..

but at least we bought quite lotsa things lar.
pei n ivy got me a puma for xmas.
but i paid for pei's puma too!

mine is the bag.
hers is the purse.
they're limited edtn.
the bag is $39.
the purse is $21.
they're a set.
we separated 'em.
awww.....
but they look really nice.
look at the pics!!
they've the golden ones.
but we preferred the bronze version.
bleh~

yup.
i'm in deep shit now.
my mum saw my hp wallpaper.
oh hell yeah.
did a bit of questioning.
but wat can she do if i deny rite..
ho ho ho.
i'll admit soon...really...
give me some time mummy..
LOL.

haven been doing my hols hw.
gotta start next wk.
time is running out.

xmas is coming.
cant wait for the party.

S.O.X: party at pasir ris park tis yr.
me n sab will get everything done.
jus prepare money n gift..
it'll be on the 22nd dec!!
attendance is complusory!!
btw, we'll be doing the shirt too.
so.. including party n shirt, each need to pay $30.
dun worry..everything will be neatly planned n done for yall.
rest assured.
PLEASE COOPERATE!! Thanks!!

stupid lappy!

wat a dumb lappy!
scare me!
dumb ass.
thank goodness i managed to restore it back.
otherwise..
it wld be diasterous.
all my pics will be GONE!!
imagine tis..
3000++ over pics vanish lidat tat..
phew.
i got a weak heart actualli.
LOL.

hmmm...
quite relunctant to go for friendly matches tmr..
its at yio chu kang la..
not very near u see.
summore i dun even know how to get there.
not sure how long is the train ride.
aiya.
sick la.

yeap yeap..
meeting s.o.x for dinner tmr..
like finally..

so sweet.
hearts & stars.
muacks!!!